Backdated: Post written on Christmas Day

They used to say that if you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders. So, I set aside some time for my mind to wander today and ended up overwhelming myself with emotions.

Geeeee.

I'm having the whole day to myself because it's Christmas day, the day when every single shop is closed and we're allowed to ride free on all public transports, knowing that the people won't do much travelling anyway. Ah, Melbourne CBD is a dead town. Besides, the weather is absolutely berserk today! Summer bright sun one minute, thunder storms the next, followed by sunlight again, then as I was bbm-ing Shan to complain about the rising temperature making me sweat like a pig, it started hailing outside. Pffft.

I can't be bothered to leave my house anymore and I have given up on looking for places to go, things to do, so I just sat still in front of my laptop, going through old blog posts of Proudduck. hehe. It's my favourite blog.

Anyway, my heart tells me that I want to go home.

As a matter of fact, home is where the heart is. At present, home is where my parents are and it's in Malaysia.

I got offered a place in doing Honours in Melbourne University, which means I will be staying back in Melbourne for 2012. It's just something I want really badly because it's a challenge I set for myself before I sign myself up for the working world. Partly also, I would like to redeem myself with better grades. Seriously, my results was a disgrace back in first year and I didn't know what's going on most of the time. Then, it's not until second semester of second year that I started getting first class honours for my subjects, that's when I started to "learn" gradually, started to build my character bit by bit.

It's not very common to pursue one more year of honours, especially in areas such as Marketing/Management. But it's where I can see myself excel in, definitely not jobs involving accounting spreadsheets and financial numbers. I can devise strategies based on those finalised numbers, but please don't ask me to crack my head in order to come up with them. So, for next year, I think Honours is the right thing to do. After that, I will revaluate my paths that will lead me to my goal, to a place where I call home.

It has to be a place where I can provide and I want to give back to my parents, although they've emphasised from time to time that, they demand nothing from me. My parents are the most understanding and loving people as they'd given me full autonomy in deciding what do I want to do with my life. Nonetheless, as much as they said I'm not obligated to them in any way, I'm more than willing to be responsible for my duty as their only daughter. I insist.

People used to ask me, what do your parents want you to do after you graduate?

I said they would like me to stay back in Australia, as far away from Malaysia as possible, but sorry mum and dad, I'm gonna disobey you on this.

Because I love you both too much.

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Two days from Christmas day...

Although the date of the post is 25th of December, I never managed to publish the post in time on the Christmas day. I ended up leaving my house in the evening to join Jacey with her bf for dinner. Then, I tagged along for drinks at a casual Christmas gathering with Zo, her twin sister and mum. Twas very nice.

The host even had a Christmas present for me!

It was such a pleasant surprise.

PS:

Because it's Christmas time, we tell the truth.

The truth is, I feel blessed.

PPS:

In sum, I had an awesome Christmas and great Boxing day sales experience, not in terms of how much bargains I managed to hoard or how many presents I received but the fact that I really enjoyed the company, of friends and families and of course, the time I spent with my Self.

Getting ready for 2012.